In 1966, when he was just 18 years old and still in high school in Wadesboro, N.C., Kenneth Williams enlisted in the Marine Corps. He went to fight in Vietnam, and it shaped his future.  When Williams returned from Vietnam, he sought comfort from his pastor. Grappling with guilt, fear, and persistent nightmares, he struggled to move forward and make a normal, respectable life with a wife, kids and a job.

Like so many of the young men who served in Vietnam, he bore the challenge of taking on these adult responsibilities while haunted by penetrating memories of war.

“You go there as a loving human being, but change to an animal trying to survive,” Williams said.

Dr. Sabrina Felson, William’s primary care doctor over the last 10 years, feels that Williams had a lot to teach us about confronting personal challenges, whether related to addiction, PTSD, raising children, relationships, or more specifically being a Vietnam Veteran.

The year following his 18-month tour in Vietnam, Williams married his high-school sweetheart, Marie, and over the next decade they had three daughters. During that time, he went to work for the phone company, where he installed pay phones throughout the city for more than 20 years.   During lunch, he would hang out at a club on where he shot pool and did drugs. He said he did anything he could, “except shooting up heroin.”  When crack-cocaine became available, he used that too. When he tried to stop, he increased his alcohol.

“I rode my motorcycle wide open,” fast, intoxicated, helmetless—hopelessly reckless. Once upon returning to his hometown in North Carolina, his mother lamented, “Kenny, you must not love me.” It was a plea from mother to son, to quit drinking and drugging and take care of himself and his family. And though it took him another 10 years to become sober, he lived with the sting of his mother’s words.

In 2009, Williams says he “bottomed out, but nobody could see it.” On another visit to the South, he took a swallow of whisky and retched blood.  He lost more than half of his blood through a tear in his GI tract caused by violent vomiting.

“My doctor was blunt.  He didn’t sugar coat it.” Williams said, adding that his ICU doctor warned, “You’re going to die a miserable death.” Instead, he got sober.

As part of his self-healing, Mr. Williams joined a PTSD group for Vietnam Veterans at the VA NY Harbor Healthcare System’s Manhattan Campus, initially facilitated by PTSD Program Director, Dr. Christie Jackson, and now run by Dr. Michael Kramer.  He appreciates the comradery amongst his peers in the group, and rarely misses their Thursday meetings.

Struggle Reflects His Strong Moral Code and Goodness

Dr. Felson and Williams, pictured above, talk about the stress test of war.

“Most people don’t ever know how they will react in a split second under the threat of death” said Dr. Felson. “To me, Mr. Williams’ struggle reflects his strong moral code and goodness, which felt compromised by the demands of combat at an especially vulnerable age when he was just coming into his own manhood.”

“My grandkids sense how I feel,” Williams said.  “My six-year-old grandson says, ‘Don’t bother Pop-Pop. He’s not feeling good’.”

“They’re protecting you,” said Dr. Felson.

His middle daughter, Theresa, when asked to describe her father said, “Isn’t he adorable? He is my heart.” She goes on to explain that despite his struggles during her childhood, she and her sisters felt loved and sheltered. All his girls completed college and are professionals.  One is a vice president at Wells Fargo, another in corporate furniture sales and the third in medical billing.

Mr. Williams has nearly 10 years with “No drugs, no alcohol, no smoking.  Nothing.  It took 33 years.”

He should be proud of this accomplishment and it is thrilling to see the loving relationships that surround him. His partner, Annette, shared, “No matter what I have to do for him, I would never let him go, never. He’s a good damn man.”

Despite his past addiction, self-harm, and bad deeds, it’s clear that Mr. Williams is fundamentally an admired, generous, kind, funny, connected, and beloved father, grandfather, ex-husband, partner, and friend. You don’t have to be perfect to be a wonderful guy.

About the authors: Dr. Sabrina Felson is a Primary Care doctor and Claudie Benjamin is a Public Affairs Specialist, at the VA’s NY Harbor Healthcare System Manhattan Campus

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Published on Mar. 23, 2017

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  1. Don Ricketts March 27, 2017 at 10:44 pm

    I am happy for Mr.Williams and I know from first-hand experience what it’s like to stay abstinent for that long. I’m glad I took time to read his story, as it was a reminder to me that the persons we were as addicts is not who we are today. It takes daily reminders like this story to keep us on the right track. Thanks for the story.

  2. Carl Grimes Jr March 25, 2017 at 3:34 pm

    Such an inspiring story. Sometimes the throws of addiction can have us in such a dark place that me forget we are loving human beings who are loved and cared about. Hearing stories like this inspire me to keep pushing forward in the walk of sobriety. In 3 more days I will celebrate my first year of being absolutely 100% alcohol and drug free. Thanks for showing me it works.

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