One of the great misconceptions about PTSD among Veterans is that it only affects those who saw combat.

Nothing could be further from the truth.

As the name implies – post-traumatic stress disorder – the condition can result from any traumatic event in a person’s life. And former U.S. Marine Brooke Milbocker knows that all-too well.

She didn’t see combat, but she experienced something equally horrific – sexual assault, by a superior officer.

The assault took place during a Memorial Day party in 2012, Milbocker said, noting that she wasn’t the only woman to accuse the man of assault. Three others also sought charges.

The trial lasted a year, Milbocker said, and resulted in an eight-year sentence for the perpetrator.

But the assault and trial took their toll on Milbocker.

“No one was severely hurt, but it did destroy my career,” she said. “It created a lot of controversy and a lot of issues.

“People talk about PTSD among war Veterans, but there is a whole other category of PTSD that’s not getting the attention that is needed.”

And that’s why Milbocker is speaking out.


Milbocker, now 28, enlisted in the Marine Corps in 2011, two years after graduating from high school.

She had been attending college, but joined the Marines as a way to help pay for her education. Plus, she said she believed in what the Marines stood for.

“There were those who wanted it swept under the rug. The first woman who came forward was not believed, and they did nothing about it.”

After boot camp, Milbocker enrolled in aviation school and became a drone pilot, commanding a 14-foot drone from the back of a Humvee while out in the field with other Marines.

The assault took place while she was still in aviation school.

“I got dropped from aviation school because I missed too many days because of the trial,” she said.

While the case dragged on, Milbocker found herself victimized in another way – by those who didn’t believe her and the other women.

“There were those who wanted it swept under the rug,” she said. “The first woman who came forward was not believed, and they did nothing about it.

Brooke Milbocker

Brooke Milbocker, how she looked in the Marine Corps, and how she looks today. After a sexual assault sent her on a downward spiral, she found help at the Milwaukee VA.

Not long after the assault, Milbocker experienced another traumatic event: Her 14-year-old brother committed suicide. It was the second suicide in her family, coming only a few years after her grandfather took his own life, she said.

Struggling with grief and the fallout from the assault, Milbocker turned to alcohol in an attempt to drown out the pain.

“I was drinking and depressed, telling my mom I wish I would die,” she said. “It was the beginning of the downward spiral.”

Milbocker was able to complete aviation school and soon found herself stationed in California. But being so far from home only exacerbated her PTSD.

“The symptoms got worse; the drinking got worse,” she said. “I had a lot of issues adjusting to military life.”

In 2014, she was discharged from the Marines because of the PTSD, but she continued to live in California.

“It was a really sad time. I eventually hit rock bottom. I was doing a lot of drugs and a lot of drinking, and I wasn’t eating. I realized I needed help.”

Instead of seeking treatment, Milbocker said she continued to drink and soon turned to drugs, going from marijuana to cocaine and other drugs.

“It was a really sad time – I eventually hit rock bottom,” she said.

She called her mother, and she helped her move back home to Wisconsin. Soon after that, she began getting treatment at the Milwaukee VA Medical Center, taking full advantage of the numerous programs available to her.

“I went to inpatient treatment for two months, started individual counseling, group therapy, AA meetings and lots of other stuff,” she said.

“With VA’s help, I was able to get back on my feet,” she said.


Milbocker has been clean from drugs for four years and continues to work on her sobriety along with addressing her PTSD.

“I still have a lot of work to do,” she said, listing the numerous groups and programs in which she participates. “It requires daily effort.

“PTSD changes your brain. You have to work hard to deal with this condition. It’s just like if you were a war Veteran: Your brain has been damaged and changed.”

The road hasn’t been smooth; she admitted having a margarita with dinner about two months ago, ending 9.5 months of sobriety.

“Sometimes in recovery, you can get down on yourself and you want to give up,” she said. “But these blips are bound to happen. The key is to get right back on track.”

Another bump in the road has been the COVID-19 pandemic, which forced the Milwaukee VA to suspend all of its in-person groups and programs and deliver those services virtually.

“That messed up my routine, but you have to stay plugged into the support and the groups,” she said. “That’s how you get better.”

Helping others

Besides the help she receives at the Milwaukee VA Medical Center, Milbocker has used VA benefits to go back to school and purchase a home.

She is currently in graduate school, studying human services. Along with her master’s degree, she plans to get a certificate in counseling with an emphasis on addictions studies.

“I want to help other Veterans like me,” she said, saying she would love to work for VA someday.

“Before, I didn’t know about the treatment available. I was naïve. But I’ve realized there are resources out there to help you.

“I don’t want people to get discouraged. I’m working on my recovery every day. It’s a lifelong process; it’s a journey. The programs at VA have helped me.”

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Published on Jul. 9, 2020

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  1. Roger Woods July 16, 2020 at 2:00 pm

    I was sexually assaulted by seven shipmates. Even though I fought as hard as I could it didn’t stop them. I got transferred to a different division on the ship and my attackers got nothing! And then discharged for “character and behavior disorders”. So I buried it and went on with my life for 42 years, but when i retired all the memories came back and PTSD took over every aspect of my life. I wanted to die, I started drinking again, I lost my marriage. I went to the VA thinking I had nothing to lose. Thanks to a great therapist and an equally awesome shrink my life is better, but not great. Because of what happened I will never be great, but I no longer wake up each morning wondering if today will be the day I will kill myself and on most days feel safe leaving my apartment. Life is not what I thought it would be, but thanks to the VA, it ain’t half bad.

  2. Cheryl Brown July 16, 2020 at 10:06 am

    I was in the army in basic traing in 1978 and was raped..when i tried to talk to others in the military they wanted to do more of the same..I have had to swallow it down forever..The guy who raped me had 2 other guys come to do the same ..when I told him I had blood cause I was virgin and crying..By the grace of God he didnt let them. But he did it.
    And i can never forget..He was bigger and stronger and was a E6. Low Lifes and I HATE

  3. Nicola Poitras July 15, 2020 at 7:34 pm

    Thank you for sharing your experience. I was raped while in the Navy on board ship. I was told by a female superior not to say anything because it would ruin my career and I wouldn’t be believed anyway. I kept quiet, and and decided to get out after my ttour was up. I became an alcohol. I met my husband and got sober, that was 25 years ago today. I was triggered 20 years after my rape, and have been in therapy for the last 10 years.
    It is an ongoing battle, but I get up each morning and tell myself, today is the first day of the rest of my life.
    God Bless Marine. And to all the women on here I wish you good living, good loving and good fortune.

  4. Charyse Kirby July 15, 2020 at 10:26 am

    I know it’s been a hard road but thank you for speaking up about being raped. To many women have been silenced out of fear. You are on your way don’t give up. God is blessing you.

  5. Dawn Marie Salmons July 14, 2020 at 11:22 pm

    I’m so happy that you were able to go to court. To get a conviction. I was also a woman Marine in the late seventies. I was one of three, first WM Military Police in the FMF. When we were in the field during training excercise, our posts were in the middle of the dessert. Know one was around. Sitting in or around our Jeep. I was on duty with a marine after midnight, when he raped me at knifepoint. All I remember was the knife against my throat, then waking up in the hospital. Nothing happened to him, even though a rape kit was done and I had a laceration on my throat. A year ago, I filed for PTSD with the VA. Of course I was denied, but I had Mil. med records and phyc records. I was awarded 30 percent. God Bless you, Marine. Semper Fi

  6. V Sango July 14, 2020 at 9:32 am

    Thanks for sharing your experience. At least you were diagnosed early and not decades later when you get triggered. You are brave for speaking the truth and following all the way through. Ooh-rah Devil dog!!

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